Lately I've been spending more and more time taking the chance to just sit and think. No major distractions, no movies, music, or *gasp* books, but just myself and my wandering mind. And what has my mind been spending time on lately? Or more accurately, where has it been, and the answer is: in the past.
Remembering people, jobs, moments, words said, things done, and so much more. And what's even more interesting about it is that almost each time that I think of a person, they seem to come to my life again somehow. The most recent occurrence of this being a few minutes ago on campus.
One of my morning classes was cancelled but since I was already almost to campus I decided to just stick around and play catch up on nothing-ness while sipping on a warm cup of coco, when in walks in a girl who I worked with at the movie theater 2+ years ago. We were never the closest of coworkers, but I always admired her for a variety of reasons, one being her hard work skills, and the other her enthusiasm/dedication to schooling. She was always floating around the concessions at work, with some note cards in one hand, and cleaning supplies in the other hand and pockets.
What made the moment nice was not just that she recognized me, and stopped to say hi, and actually catch up. Because lets admit, how often are we guilty of seeing somebody we know or used to be on a good level of acquaintance with, and after a time passes, we tend to not really notice them. Not exactly ignore them, but don't take the time to stop and say 'hey!' to them, knowing that we've had classes, work or other moments together. No you see, what made this chance meeting stick out to me was the fact that just the previous evening I'd been thinking of her and another old coworker, and thinking to myself, what were they up to? I'd always thought them each good, strong, and hardworking and have hoped that they were finally getting some of the good things that I felt they deserve.
Even better moment: as I sit at a little cafe table typing my heart out, over comes a person who had taken a pretty big role in my life for a semester, and holy cow, they ARE getting something they deserve and I'm feeling just as excited for them as they probably are for themselves! Hah!
"I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason.
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return"
Beautiful lyrics from a certain favorite musical, maybe you've heard of it, Wicked?
I can't help but have them running through my head at this moment.
So I leave you with this thought:
Who has helped you be 'Changed for the Better'??
In fact, try and think of 5 people. And I dare you to send them a little message of Hi if they're currently missing in your life, or a HUGE hug if you see them every day.
I know I've got some messages to send that's for certain.
til later,
Sweet Dreamzz
DreamzzDreamer
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Sunday, October 24, 2010
So long ago so far away
So it's been waaaaaay too long since I last posted a single thing. So I'll do the best I can to play catch up after church, but for the moment I'm at least posting to say I live. =D
LOTS to come later, including pictures, as much as possible.
LOTS to come later, including pictures, as much as possible.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
a few pictures of home <3
ok, so time and other stuff are against me getting more up at the moment, but this is just the beginning of my pictures of my place. promise i'll get more up soon. maybe i'll wake up at an unreasonable hour [like, say 8 or 9am] and get to internet and finish everything. only cuz i love yall!
This is the table and our 4 chairs. yay! it's all connected to the kitchen counter. It's real trippy.
The coolest couch ever, You'll see in my later post why it's THE COOLEST ever.
side shot of the stairs and door.
my shelf next to my bedroom door with my pot, and plaque
drawers i pieced together, my dvd's n cd's, whiteboard, and closet. BIG closet! truely
book shelf at the end of my bed. still unpacking and putting things where they belong as you can tell from some of the boxes.
my window that looks over a lot/tire place/ out onto Muldoon [main road]. FINALLY made the curtains. I'll post an upclose of them later. =)
MY BED! Ok Ok, so it's a futon, but i LOVE it! lots of purple, some brown sheets, n pillows, my little shelf in the corner, AND the coolest lamp ever. purple! started the whole thing really i think. PLUS the thing is one of those touch lamps, that i got brand new for 6 bucks. gotta love military thrift store, where everyone's constantly moving buying new things and what not.
This is the table and our 4 chairs. yay! it's all connected to the kitchen counter. It's real trippy.
The coolest couch ever, You'll see in my later post why it's THE COOLEST ever.
side shot of the stairs and door.
my shelf next to my bedroom door with my pot, and plaque
drawers i pieced together, my dvd's n cd's, whiteboard, and closet. BIG closet! truely
book shelf at the end of my bed. still unpacking and putting things where they belong as you can tell from some of the boxes.
my window that looks over a lot/tire place/ out onto Muldoon [main road]. FINALLY made the curtains. I'll post an upclose of them later. =)
MY BED! Ok Ok, so it's a futon, but i LOVE it! lots of purple, some brown sheets, n pillows, my little shelf in the corner, AND the coolest lamp ever. purple! started the whole thing really i think. PLUS the thing is one of those touch lamps, that i got brand new for 6 bucks. gotta love military thrift store, where everyone's constantly moving buying new things and what not. ANYWAYS! more pictures to come asap. love you all!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Missing
I'm Missing a lot right now.
mostly, i'm missing internet all the time.
I miss working in concessions before we had to wear hats.
The way he'd kiss me good morning.
The idea of having some of that back....
so exciting.
mostly, i'm missing internet all the time.
I miss working in concessions before we had to wear hats.
The way he'd kiss me good morning.
The idea of having some of that back....
so exciting.
Monday, August 17, 2009
'poke'
'Sarah Smith has facebook poked you.'
return poke or remove poke
pick your poison!
I dare you. Do you poke them back? Then you can start to wonder why in the effin world they poked you to begin with.
Maybe they didn't mean to poke you, but somebody else. It's possible.
But, shock what if they meant to poke you? then what's the reasoning?
I hate to see pokes on my page sometimes, depending on the person, and/or our recent history.
I mean, what the heck am i'm supposed to do about a poke from say, the guy who accidently ran over cat?
The girl who told you that she has a crush on you... and you're a girl who loves boys.
a favorite: the person who broke your heart.
maybe from a supervisor who let's face it, he's just a creeper.
how in the world do you respond to some of these. face the choices of, poking them back and just hope it was a casual 'hey! i exist, remember me?' poke.
let's hope so.
or how about creeper supervisor. oh dang what a double edge sword... to poke back and deal with a possible sexual harrassment starting, or remove the poke and hope that he doesn't put you on bathroom duty or something like that.
I admit i used to LOVE the poke feature, but as I've stopped useing it more, for some reason i've become weary of others when they use it.
who knows... maybe i should just, forget about it and not think so much about it, but golly, would i love to know what goes on in some peoples minds when they send a poke.
Wouldn't you?
return poke or remove poke
pick your poison!
I dare you. Do you poke them back? Then you can start to wonder why in the effin world they poked you to begin with.
Maybe they didn't mean to poke you, but somebody else. It's possible.
But, shock what if they meant to poke you? then what's the reasoning?
I hate to see pokes on my page sometimes, depending on the person, and/or our recent history.
I mean, what the heck am i'm supposed to do about a poke from say, the guy who accidently ran over cat?
The girl who told you that she has a crush on you... and you're a girl who loves boys.
a favorite: the person who broke your heart.
maybe from a supervisor who let's face it, he's just a creeper.
how in the world do you respond to some of these. face the choices of, poking them back and just hope it was a casual 'hey! i exist, remember me?' poke.
let's hope so.
or how about creeper supervisor. oh dang what a double edge sword... to poke back and deal with a possible sexual harrassment starting, or remove the poke and hope that he doesn't put you on bathroom duty or something like that.
I admit i used to LOVE the poke feature, but as I've stopped useing it more, for some reason i've become weary of others when they use it.
who knows... maybe i should just, forget about it and not think so much about it, but golly, would i love to know what goes on in some peoples minds when they send a poke.
Wouldn't you?
Friday, August 14, 2009
lots to say, but no time...
A usual occurance for me, not having time to say all that i'd like.
You think i'd learn to say it short n quick, but it's so tough. I'm a wordy person. I'd been working on making things vivid. for the most part though, i guess i tend to just make it confusing. =/ oh well, i guess that's the next thing to work on. =)
So, as short as I can...
It looks like i'm staying in Alaska again. Strange to say, and I don't recall making a decision, but my friend Sarah is having to find a place now due to some home stuff, and we'd talked about finding a place together before, so we're doing just that. It's crazy to think about doing, but I'm SO excited to be doing so.
Second, I'm going to be quitting my job @ the movie theatre. I don't want to, but it's not worth the money, in short. And they stopped moving me up cuz they didn't want to train and move me up, not knowing if I were moving. Their loss is all I've got to say. But I'm so glad for what I've learned there... Mostly for the friendships, the experience learned [especially in cash handling!] and just, everything overall.
At the this time, i'm also trying to right the wrongs and get myself out of the messes i've gotten myself into this last month or so. All I have to say is that being hurt like I was, can make a person do crazy things.
I still have days where I don't wanna get out of bed, looking at a picture or thinking of him makes me cry. Worst of all for some reason, is the music. Songs that writers/singers have written to touch other's hearts... yeah they're catching one pretty strong right now.
There's about 5 or 10 songs that i could make a playlist of just those songs, and i could listen to the playlist everyday, all day for at least a month and they'd still get to me. I won't sit in cars or bathrooms and bawl like the first time's they realllllly got to me, but there's just something about the lyrics that make me able to apply the song to my life at the moment.
As the title says LOTS to say, but no time. in fact, here it is about 1am, I'd planned to be in bed and sleeping, latest 10:30pm. yeah that SO didn't happen. And while i may have to wake up for work @ 5am soon, that's ok. It's been worth it. Every minute.
SO with that word, i'll end, and get a nice nap in before pulling another double duty weekend.... two days, both jobs, both days; little to no sleep, TONS of work and fun.
Oh the summer life i lead.
<3
You think i'd learn to say it short n quick, but it's so tough. I'm a wordy person. I'd been working on making things vivid. for the most part though, i guess i tend to just make it confusing. =/ oh well, i guess that's the next thing to work on. =)
So, as short as I can...
It looks like i'm staying in Alaska again. Strange to say, and I don't recall making a decision, but my friend Sarah is having to find a place now due to some home stuff, and we'd talked about finding a place together before, so we're doing just that. It's crazy to think about doing, but I'm SO excited to be doing so.
Second, I'm going to be quitting my job @ the movie theatre. I don't want to, but it's not worth the money, in short. And they stopped moving me up cuz they didn't want to train and move me up, not knowing if I were moving. Their loss is all I've got to say. But I'm so glad for what I've learned there... Mostly for the friendships, the experience learned [especially in cash handling!] and just, everything overall.
At the this time, i'm also trying to right the wrongs and get myself out of the messes i've gotten myself into this last month or so. All I have to say is that being hurt like I was, can make a person do crazy things.
I still have days where I don't wanna get out of bed, looking at a picture or thinking of him makes me cry. Worst of all for some reason, is the music. Songs that writers/singers have written to touch other's hearts... yeah they're catching one pretty strong right now.
There's about 5 or 10 songs that i could make a playlist of just those songs, and i could listen to the playlist everyday, all day for at least a month and they'd still get to me. I won't sit in cars or bathrooms and bawl like the first time's they realllllly got to me, but there's just something about the lyrics that make me able to apply the song to my life at the moment.
As the title says LOTS to say, but no time. in fact, here it is about 1am, I'd planned to be in bed and sleeping, latest 10:30pm. yeah that SO didn't happen. And while i may have to wake up for work @ 5am soon, that's ok. It's been worth it. Every minute.
SO with that word, i'll end, and get a nice nap in before pulling another double duty weekend.... two days, both jobs, both days; little to no sleep, TONS of work and fun.
Oh the summer life i lead.
<3
Thursday, July 30, 2009
why do we?
why do we:
Watch a movie what makes us long or want the life they have so badly? The notebook? yeah who hasn't cried watching that, or at least wanted a moment of their life to have that sort of love? Dreams of being the cool adventurer who'd be daring enough to take a trip or jump into the unknown like Indiana. Yearned to be the one singing and dancing along the streets in a world of their own, unaware of surrounds like within movies depicting musicals.
Pick books to read that are sure to cause us to remenisce? The stories and history that are shared. A hope that we can forget about our lives for just a moment and BE the person in the story. Have their ups and downs instead of our own.
Who can say they've never wished themselves into a storybook world? I certainly can't. I live within the covers of books. I've managed to renew a love of movies and the stories they share.How these authors and directors manage to touch us with words, sights and sounds.they make us feel.
Some manage to make us think and feel like we havn't before. They somehow get us to drege up emotions that are memories and compare these new feelings to ones of the past.How can reading a book about a love who's died, manage to make me cry, when i haven't had that same experience? It's the fears of it happening to me, past experiences of losing a loved ones, not to death but to other things.addiction.another.a lack of something.distance.
not just a romantic love, but other loves as well. loved family members, friends who are so close you count them as siblings. And they don't have to die to lose them.losing a friend/love interest to drugs. not fun. don't talk to them anymore. long before i moved states away, they had changed their life and moved out of mine. I keep a moment or two of our good times in my head when i think of him. Sitting on the hammock in the yard, really talking. giving me a flower as a joke, but realizing, too late how you really felt, and yet you couldn't express it. keeping secrets for one another. wrestling matches over the remote becoming a ticklefest, to just sharing the moment together under a blanket to keep anyone from seeing us stare at one another. so many more to remember and cherish. And you changed by addiction.
"If Frankie and I hadn't wanted ice cream that stupid day, he'd still be alive.If I hadn't gotten his heart all worked up kissing him every night since my birthday, he'd still be alive.If i'd never been born, he'd still be alive."How can she think that? this character can't possibly think that, knowing what she does about how his heart had caused the accident, she and her kisses with a boy [who loved her, it's apparent] are what killed him.and yet, i get it.
"If only i'd lived closer. If i hadn't done that with him. If I hadn't been so religious/short/older/stupid"The list of 'ifs' can go on forever if i let them, but it won't change the now. This moment of me being alone.
Sarah and i talked about biggest fears. I already can't remember her answer, but i can't stop mine from staring me in the face again. All the time suppressed and hidden away, and yet now it chooses to rear it's ugly, sad, wallowing face. Alone.Edgar Allan Poe i believe said something in a note or letter to somebody once, about being alone. I write it the way i best remember it, and find it to apply.'Though I be surrounded by hundreds and yet still I am alone'In trying to find it, i found this poem by somebody instead, and it's not quite right, but it's so beautiful.http://www.darkpoetry.com/dp/2074/16942
I deter from my orginal beginnings, as is usual for myself, but i like where it goes. and to relate the two back together, i say this.The being alone and the fear it instills, seems to be controlled when in life, and living day to day. But when reading or watching movies, that fear is released a bit and sometimes even the tears fall.Today, they fall freely. The last month or so, they've fallen more than i care to count. And yet while i'm hurting, and feeling alone, I seem to feel stronger and stronger after they fall.
more to follow on the stories
Watch a movie what makes us long or want the life they have so badly? The notebook? yeah who hasn't cried watching that, or at least wanted a moment of their life to have that sort of love? Dreams of being the cool adventurer who'd be daring enough to take a trip or jump into the unknown like Indiana. Yearned to be the one singing and dancing along the streets in a world of their own, unaware of surrounds like within movies depicting musicals.
Pick books to read that are sure to cause us to remenisce? The stories and history that are shared. A hope that we can forget about our lives for just a moment and BE the person in the story. Have their ups and downs instead of our own.
Who can say they've never wished themselves into a storybook world? I certainly can't. I live within the covers of books. I've managed to renew a love of movies and the stories they share.How these authors and directors manage to touch us with words, sights and sounds.they make us feel.
Some manage to make us think and feel like we havn't before. They somehow get us to drege up emotions that are memories and compare these new feelings to ones of the past.How can reading a book about a love who's died, manage to make me cry, when i haven't had that same experience? It's the fears of it happening to me, past experiences of losing a loved ones, not to death but to other things.addiction.another.a lack of something.distance.
not just a romantic love, but other loves as well. loved family members, friends who are so close you count them as siblings. And they don't have to die to lose them.losing a friend/love interest to drugs. not fun. don't talk to them anymore. long before i moved states away, they had changed their life and moved out of mine. I keep a moment or two of our good times in my head when i think of him. Sitting on the hammock in the yard, really talking. giving me a flower as a joke, but realizing, too late how you really felt, and yet you couldn't express it. keeping secrets for one another. wrestling matches over the remote becoming a ticklefest, to just sharing the moment together under a blanket to keep anyone from seeing us stare at one another. so many more to remember and cherish. And you changed by addiction.
"If Frankie and I hadn't wanted ice cream that stupid day, he'd still be alive.If I hadn't gotten his heart all worked up kissing him every night since my birthday, he'd still be alive.If i'd never been born, he'd still be alive."How can she think that? this character can't possibly think that, knowing what she does about how his heart had caused the accident, she and her kisses with a boy [who loved her, it's apparent] are what killed him.and yet, i get it.
"If only i'd lived closer. If i hadn't done that with him. If I hadn't been so religious/short/older/stupid"The list of 'ifs' can go on forever if i let them, but it won't change the now. This moment of me being alone.
Sarah and i talked about biggest fears. I already can't remember her answer, but i can't stop mine from staring me in the face again. All the time suppressed and hidden away, and yet now it chooses to rear it's ugly, sad, wallowing face. Alone.Edgar Allan Poe i believe said something in a note or letter to somebody once, about being alone. I write it the way i best remember it, and find it to apply.'Though I be surrounded by hundreds and yet still I am alone'In trying to find it, i found this poem by somebody instead, and it's not quite right, but it's so beautiful.http://www.darkpoetry.com/dp/2074/16942
I deter from my orginal beginnings, as is usual for myself, but i like where it goes. and to relate the two back together, i say this.The being alone and the fear it instills, seems to be controlled when in life, and living day to day. But when reading or watching movies, that fear is released a bit and sometimes even the tears fall.Today, they fall freely. The last month or so, they've fallen more than i care to count. And yet while i'm hurting, and feeling alone, I seem to feel stronger and stronger after they fall.
more to follow on the stories
Monday, June 1, 2009
i'm just full of blogs! =)
Ok, so i'm not exactly full of blogs, but i'm online again, and just miss blogging SO much, and i've discovered that typing keeps my hands occupied and thus i'm not scratching myself, making my hives worse.
and ok let me tell yah, hives SUCK! ugh. same with tonsillitus. hate them like the black plague. which i'm sure i'll get next, with my luck. and yet i still manage not to have mono. ;) whatev.
kinda in a mood to skip fhe and everything with it. cept i kinda can't seeing as i'm doing the short lesson again cuz well, i am. And then, planning meeting afterwards which is TOTALLY needed. it's way way way way way way ..... [8 million 'way's later] overdue!
but i just would much rather be curled up sleeping. or doing more random online stuff. and watching tivo'd shows or a movie. i've hardly seen movies lately.
Of course it's better that i am going to fhe and this meeting. and, uh totally forgot my train of thought. oops.
oooooooh! great lesson's at church yesterday. standing as witness, and then marriage. er well, dating and courtship. aaaaaaand suddenly i think it's time to switch to my other blog... lol! maybe later.
I wish it were april again. =/ or that it's the end of summer and i'm drivin down the alcan =) that'd be awesome. i'm ready to not feel so alone again. ugh. hate the feeling. probably why i work so much. but work is making me sick i think. or i'm making myself sick. who knows.
i've got work in the morning, and am totally up for going to sleep now. lol
oh well. back to putting together a lesson.
til next time!
and ok let me tell yah, hives SUCK! ugh. same with tonsillitus. hate them like the black plague. which i'm sure i'll get next, with my luck. and yet i still manage not to have mono. ;) whatev.
kinda in a mood to skip fhe and everything with it. cept i kinda can't seeing as i'm doing the short lesson again cuz well, i am. And then, planning meeting afterwards which is TOTALLY needed. it's way way way way way way ..... [8 million 'way's later] overdue!
but i just would much rather be curled up sleeping. or doing more random online stuff. and watching tivo'd shows or a movie. i've hardly seen movies lately.
Of course it's better that i am going to fhe and this meeting. and, uh totally forgot my train of thought. oops.
oooooooh! great lesson's at church yesterday. standing as witness, and then marriage. er well, dating and courtship. aaaaaaand suddenly i think it's time to switch to my other blog... lol! maybe later.
I wish it were april again. =/ or that it's the end of summer and i'm drivin down the alcan =) that'd be awesome. i'm ready to not feel so alone again. ugh. hate the feeling. probably why i work so much. but work is making me sick i think. or i'm making myself sick. who knows.
i've got work in the morning, and am totally up for going to sleep now. lol
oh well. back to putting together a lesson.
til next time!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
simply put
I want to feel his hand around mine.
Hear his breathing near my ear.
Smell him, and not off a shirt sent from far.
Wake up from naps, next to him and still holding on to eachother.
Have him pull me closer or kiss me while he slept, [and i didn't] and not know when mention it.
Not just Know that I've got him forever, but FEEL.
Hear his breathing near my ear.
Smell him, and not off a shirt sent from far.
Wake up from naps, next to him and still holding on to eachother.
Have him pull me closer or kiss me while he slept, [and i didn't] and not know when mention it.
Not just Know that I've got him forever, but FEEL.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I'm in love... with a town.
Is it's possible? to be in love with a town? i honestly have No Clue.
But thanks to Robby i am absolutly infatuated with Ann Arbor, MI. We went there while i was visiting and it was just about the cutest town ever! amazing little shops. great eats [i REALLY liked Noodle & Co, and am dying to eat at one again] and of course the Michigan Uni. campus which was amazing to check for a moment or two.
Robby n I may joke about my moving to Farminton Hills [or whatev the city is] but i think it'd be amazing cuz then i'd be SO close to Ann arbor and able to visit him AND have this amazing little city just about a half hour away...
oh the wishes n dreams i have.
But thanks to Robby i am absolutly infatuated with Ann Arbor, MI. We went there while i was visiting and it was just about the cutest town ever! amazing little shops. great eats [i REALLY liked Noodle & Co, and am dying to eat at one again] and of course the Michigan Uni. campus which was amazing to check for a moment or two.
Robby n I may joke about my moving to Farminton Hills [or whatev the city is] but i think it'd be amazing cuz then i'd be SO close to Ann arbor and able to visit him AND have this amazing little city just about a half hour away...
oh the wishes n dreams i have.
Monday, April 6, 2009
excited, and scared. not just scared, i'm freakin!
gah!
it's 3am, i have to get up soon for work, and here i am online, not asleep, and i'm just WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY to excited to be gone and on my way to seeing robby.
it's been over a year now since i last saw him. and i'm starting to get scared about it all actually.
i'm re-meeting the mother. officially meeting the rest of the family and i'm freaking out. completly.
gahhhhh! i don't know how i'm gonna make it. that's i lie, i don't know how, but i know that i will make it. and ok lying on my bed typing all this with my head on the matress and looking at the screen sideways, all the letters look realllllly weird. but it's awesome. lol ok yeah... randomness and sleep sillyness are obviously shown now. oops. whatev.
i spent like thirty min looking through all the different images that i'd put together and collected and such on photobucket that i was gonna be using and stuff all the time and i do ust them some but not like i figured i would, but that's ok. it was such a strange trip through my history looking at some. lol and i can't decide if some still apply to my life or not. but others i still completely love. one of the favorites:
i think it's just so cute.
one of the FIRST icons that i put in my album....
even if i'm not a beach/sea side girl, i love it. it's beautiful.
and i know it's a bit silly but pictures like that are the type of modeling i'd love to do... not the up close, or anything like that, but pictures that are silhouette's, distance, black and white and so forth. and preferably cute one's similar to this. it's just something i think i'd enjoy, either taking them or being in them. maybe someday i'll give it a shot. i just think i'm too shy to do any sort of modeling, even from a distance. i prefer candid shots of myself. and this post has gotten wayyy random. haha!
anyways. maybe i should attempt sleep. then again, tomorrow is only a monday. haha!
it's 3am, i have to get up soon for work, and here i am online, not asleep, and i'm just WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY to excited to be gone and on my way to seeing robby.
it's been over a year now since i last saw him. and i'm starting to get scared about it all actually.
i'm re-meeting the mother. officially meeting the rest of the family and i'm freaking out. completly.
gahhhhh! i don't know how i'm gonna make it. that's i lie, i don't know how, but i know that i will make it. and ok lying on my bed typing all this with my head on the matress and looking at the screen sideways, all the letters look realllllly weird. but it's awesome. lol ok yeah... randomness and sleep sillyness are obviously shown now. oops. whatev.
i spent like thirty min looking through all the different images that i'd put together and collected and such on photobucket that i was gonna be using and stuff all the time and i do ust them some but not like i figured i would, but that's ok. it was such a strange trip through my history looking at some. lol and i can't decide if some still apply to my life or not. but others i still completely love. one of the favorites:
i think it's just so cute.
one of the FIRST icons that i put in my album....
even if i'm not a beach/sea side girl, i love it. it's beautiful.
and i know it's a bit silly but pictures like that are the type of modeling i'd love to do... not the up close, or anything like that, but pictures that are silhouette's, distance, black and white and so forth. and preferably cute one's similar to this. it's just something i think i'd enjoy, either taking them or being in them. maybe someday i'll give it a shot. i just think i'm too shy to do any sort of modeling, even from a distance. i prefer candid shots of myself. and this post has gotten wayyy random. haha!
anyways. maybe i should attempt sleep. then again, tomorrow is only a monday. haha!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Mickey cap on the lamp, and Flowers on the wall
So i was up until 2am last night due to airports/friends/driving and snow. =)
what do i have to show for it?
A WALT DISNEY WORLD MICKEY EARS CAP with, my name embroidered into it, in HOT PINK! =)
lol i know i'm a silly goose [although no one can call me that cept myself i decided last night...] but it made me way happy. PLUS i got a pair of jeans back from a friend who'd borrowed them back in like, august or september. HAHA! yay. gotta love that. plus she should be getting my swimsuit back to me soon. woo!
and then today, i took it slow n easy doing nothingness before work. just spent tons of time online, but i did finish some laundry, and clear up a small part of my room and finally did something with my flowers.
yes flowers.
I got some BEAUTIFUL pink gerbier daisies from my lovely boy, Robby, for valentines. <3 gotta love him for all he put into it. and well, they mean something to me, especially since this is the first valentines since 8th grade that i've either a)not broken up with a guy [within a week before or the day of...] and b) i'm not single, and thus celebrating Singles Awareness Day. haha! now robby says i have expectations and that he should've started off easy by like, just being my boyfriend or saying 'happy valentines, i love you' haha! yeah right. lol whatev. next years goal, to be with him on valentines. haha! right, anyways, the flowers, well they're wilted and such and since they mean something to me, i finally pulled them outta the vase and fixed them up all pretty with a ribbon and have hung them on my wall.
They're next to the lamp that my new Mickey Ears are sitting on and i think it's just the funniest thing ever and they make me happy. =)
thought i'd share some of my random happiness for the day with yall.
<3
what do i have to show for it?
A WALT DISNEY WORLD MICKEY EARS CAP with, my name embroidered into it, in HOT PINK! =)
lol i know i'm a silly goose [although no one can call me that cept myself i decided last night...] but it made me way happy. PLUS i got a pair of jeans back from a friend who'd borrowed them back in like, august or september. HAHA! yay. gotta love that. plus she should be getting my swimsuit back to me soon. woo!
and then today, i took it slow n easy doing nothingness before work. just spent tons of time online, but i did finish some laundry, and clear up a small part of my room and finally did something with my flowers.
yes flowers.
I got some BEAUTIFUL pink gerbier daisies from my lovely boy, Robby, for valentines. <3 gotta love him for all he put into it. and well, they mean something to me, especially since this is the first valentines since 8th grade that i've either a)not broken up with a guy [within a week before or the day of...] and b) i'm not single, and thus celebrating Singles Awareness Day. haha! now robby says i have expectations and that he should've started off easy by like, just being my boyfriend or saying 'happy valentines, i love you' haha! yeah right. lol whatev. next years goal, to be with him on valentines. haha! right, anyways, the flowers, well they're wilted and such and since they mean something to me, i finally pulled them outta the vase and fixed them up all pretty with a ribbon and have hung them on my wall.
They're next to the lamp that my new Mickey Ears are sitting on and i think it's just the funniest thing ever and they make me happy. =)
thought i'd share some of my random happiness for the day with yall.
<3
Friday, January 30, 2009
the sickness
I hate being sick, but i like loosing my voice.
i've probably mentioned it before but thought i'd say it again.
Loving work at the Theater. thinking of changing life around maybe in the next lil bit. looking to take a nice trip to Michigan to see my buddy Robby here in April. =) lots of fun.
loving this time online lately. =) wish i took the incentive to do it more.
oh well...
gotta get better so i can get online more. =)
i've probably mentioned it before but thought i'd say it again.
Loving work at the Theater. thinking of changing life around maybe in the next lil bit. looking to take a nice trip to Michigan to see my buddy Robby here in April. =) lots of fun.
loving this time online lately. =) wish i took the incentive to do it more.
oh well...
gotta get better so i can get online more. =)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
oh me oh my
why do things have to cost so much?
Has anyone invented teleportation yet? If so, i want to shake their hand.
and if nobody has... THEN INVENT IT! roar. [dinosaur!]
Can i just, move now? right now? and be with him? it's what i want. him, and some sort of education, from somewhere.
Has anyone invented teleportation yet? If so, i want to shake their hand.
and if nobody has... THEN INVENT IT! roar. [dinosaur!]
Can i just, move now? right now? and be with him? it's what i want. him, and some sort of education, from somewhere.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Oh no you didn't...
Heather, you tagged me in this about a month ago at least, and here I am taking a few moments before work to get in a post for the first time in TWO months! EEK!
8 Favorite TV Shows in no particular order
1.Gray's Anatomy - thanks for the addiction roomies
2.Greek - the roomie's strike again
3. CSI: Miami
4.Price is Right
5. 60 Minutes - a newfound love of mine for when i get home from church
6. NO MORE! I have no other favorites, i just enjoy watching whatever
7.
8.
Things I did yesterday:
1. Worked - sold tickets, refunds, exchanges, yelled, sold and sold and SOLD
2. Drove gary to his car
3. cleared off my car
4. curled my hair for work. =)
5. drove around from shawns to home to work to gary's car to home.
6.
7.
8.
Favorite Restaurants:
1. Red Robin
2. Applebee's
3. Glacier Brewhouse
4. In N Out -a stretch but i love it =)
5. Olive Garden
6. TGI Friday's
7. Brick Oven
8.
Things on my wish list:
1. Loose Weight
2. my laptop to come back FIXED
3. MORE TIME!
4. a visit to boston
5. slightly longer hair... why won't it just grow??
6. To see Wicked
7. To visit Dad, and Robby
8.
Things I love about FALL:
1. The smell in the air
2. the crisp feeling and scents
3. The changing colors
4. the new beginning school brings
5. Curling up with a great book
6. sweaters
7. the beginning of cuddling with loved ones
8.
PEOPLE I TAG:
1. Camille
2. Shelly
3. Stacey
4. Danelle Cheney
5. tyler S
6. Adam
7. Lance
Yes it's mostly family but that's about all who reads my blog.
8 Favorite TV Shows in no particular order
1.Gray's Anatomy - thanks for the addiction roomies
2.Greek - the roomie's strike again
3. CSI: Miami
4.Price is Right
5. 60 Minutes - a newfound love of mine for when i get home from church
6. NO MORE! I have no other favorites, i just enjoy watching whatever
7.
8.
Things I did yesterday:
1. Worked - sold tickets, refunds, exchanges, yelled, sold and sold and SOLD
2. Drove gary to his car
3. cleared off my car
4. curled my hair for work. =)
5. drove around from shawns to home to work to gary's car to home.
6.
7.
8.
Favorite Restaurants:
1. Red Robin
2. Applebee's
3. Glacier Brewhouse
4. In N Out -a stretch but i love it =)
5. Olive Garden
6. TGI Friday's
7. Brick Oven
8.
Things on my wish list:
1. Loose Weight
2. my laptop to come back FIXED
3. MORE TIME!
4. a visit to boston
5. slightly longer hair... why won't it just grow??
6. To see Wicked
7. To visit Dad, and Robby
8.
Things I love about FALL:
1. The smell in the air
2. the crisp feeling and scents
3. The changing colors
4. the new beginning school brings
5. Curling up with a great book
6. sweaters
7. the beginning of cuddling with loved ones
8.
PEOPLE I TAG:
1. Camille
2. Shelly
3. Stacey
4. Danelle Cheney
5. tyler S
6. Adam
7. Lance
Yes it's mostly family but that's about all who reads my blog.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
just for you heather. =)
So I don't have to much to say, but i thought that just for heather I'd put up a short post.
I'm still alive. I'm still working at the theater. dating a co-worker. I'm going to institute. LOVING my calling at church, and just, Having tons of fun.
AND it snowed this conference weekend!!!!!
it's beautiful and i love it, and will miss it while i'm on VACATION! Adam and I were confirmed for our cruise and we'll be sailing around the Carribean after Mary Kate's Baptism. Can't wait to get a little bit of sun on my pasty white legs. HAHA!
anyways, now that i've said a few things i've decided i have TONS to say, but not enough courage to sit alone at the institute building alone [i (sort of) get to close up, kinda scary!] and so i will just write it all out in word at home, and then copy/paste it later when i've got internet access again.
OH! and FYI if you've been trying to call or text me at my cell number for anything, be aware that it has changed and that I am now available at this new-ish number:
626.536.9889
call it, text it, whatever floats your boat.
love yall tons and can't WAIT to see people in the next few weeks here!
.:crystal:.
I'm still alive. I'm still working at the theater. dating a co-worker. I'm going to institute. LOVING my calling at church, and just, Having tons of fun.
AND it snowed this conference weekend!!!!!
it's beautiful and i love it, and will miss it while i'm on VACATION! Adam and I were confirmed for our cruise and we'll be sailing around the Carribean after Mary Kate's Baptism. Can't wait to get a little bit of sun on my pasty white legs. HAHA!
anyways, now that i've said a few things i've decided i have TONS to say, but not enough courage to sit alone at the institute building alone [i (sort of) get to close up, kinda scary!] and so i will just write it all out in word at home, and then copy/paste it later when i've got internet access again.
OH! and FYI if you've been trying to call or text me at my cell number for anything, be aware that it has changed and that I am now available at this new-ish number:
626.536.9889
call it, text it, whatever floats your boat.
love yall tons and can't WAIT to see people in the next few weeks here!
.:crystal:.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Holy Mole-ie
This time I KNOW that it's been forever since I've done a post on my personal blog. I feel like such a blogger failure. =/ I just don't get to the computer all too much [usually about once a week] and it's never for too long before i've got to jettison off to the next job, or home to clean my uniforms. gotta have those clean black socks. =)
As I've written on the family blog, I did a huge post about how crazy I've been at the theater, and the hotels. I finally had the day off from BOTH jobs on Tuesday so i had a lovely day planned, of getting up around 9:30, 10:00 [depending on if i hit snooze or not], fold a little laundry, take my time getting ready, and then meeting up with my friend for lunch and whatever he an i chose to do from there. My phone, which is my alarm clock also, had different ideas, and chose to turn itself off, and thus I woke at 11:35 [seems i needed a little sleep, considering i went to bed around 9:30] and had to rush to shower, dress, drive downtown and find parking. Poor Max, when I arrived was worried I had stood him up [apparently he said it's happened before, but I'm shocked that anyone could stand up Max.] After hanging out with him for part of the day, i took a trip to get gas, made a Walmart stop, met up with Dad @ the library for some friendly computer time, and then headed home to yet more laundry [and i'm still not done with it! ugh!].
As you can see from the huge post on the family blog about work, and my busy moments even when I have the day off, my life is keeping me busy, althought, i always put the word out there, not too busy that I can't take a lil time off for a date. ;) I've always got time for fun with the right guy. haha!
OH! no clue if i mentioned it, but I finally got my brand spanken new purple digital camera. i'm WAY excited for it, and cannot WAIT to post some pics up from trips, randomness of my life and so forth.
Anywho, gotta head out to lunch and then back to the grind of the day. double jobs today. yay!
love to all my lovlies.
As I've written on the family blog, I did a huge post about how crazy I've been at the theater, and the hotels. I finally had the day off from BOTH jobs on Tuesday so i had a lovely day planned, of getting up around 9:30, 10:00 [depending on if i hit snooze or not], fold a little laundry, take my time getting ready, and then meeting up with my friend for lunch and whatever he an i chose to do from there. My phone, which is my alarm clock also, had different ideas, and chose to turn itself off, and thus I woke at 11:35 [seems i needed a little sleep, considering i went to bed around 9:30] and had to rush to shower, dress, drive downtown and find parking. Poor Max, when I arrived was worried I had stood him up [apparently he said it's happened before, but I'm shocked that anyone could stand up Max.] After hanging out with him for part of the day, i took a trip to get gas, made a Walmart stop, met up with Dad @ the library for some friendly computer time, and then headed home to yet more laundry [and i'm still not done with it! ugh!].
As you can see from the huge post on the family blog about work, and my busy moments even when I have the day off, my life is keeping me busy, althought, i always put the word out there, not too busy that I can't take a lil time off for a date. ;) I've always got time for fun with the right guy. haha!
OH! no clue if i mentioned it, but I finally got my brand spanken new purple digital camera. i'm WAY excited for it, and cannot WAIT to post some pics up from trips, randomness of my life and so forth.
Anywho, gotta head out to lunch and then back to the grind of the day. double jobs today. yay!
love to all my lovlies.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
long time gone
it feels as though it's been forever.
It kind of has been.
don't know what to say... Finally in Alaska.
start work tomorrow. may be changing positions/job [within HAL though]
trying to find wheels. pretty tough. i had to be stupid last year. hummm.
Totally glad to be back in the Cook Inlet ward, missed it a lot.
can't wait to see what the summer will bring. =)
really, i just don't know what to say, at least not here on this blog.
love to all.
It kind of has been.
don't know what to say... Finally in Alaska.
start work tomorrow. may be changing positions/job [within HAL though]
trying to find wheels. pretty tough. i had to be stupid last year. hummm.
Totally glad to be back in the Cook Inlet ward, missed it a lot.
can't wait to see what the summer will bring. =)
really, i just don't know what to say, at least not here on this blog.
love to all.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
music poem
oooh! also also!
Also!
I dyed my hair the other nite, and while you can't really see it in tonite's pictures, if you take a closer look @ the one of me hanging through the sun roof, you can see it. It's on the underside/bottom of my hair, and it's just a bit darker than the rest of my hair. I love it and Holla' to Mare for her amazing work! love her! I'll try n take pics of the hair soon, n get it posted up ASAP. =)
NITE!
Love.
<3
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