simply put

I want to feel his hand around mine.
Hear his breathing near my ear.
Smell him, and not off a shirt sent from far.
Wake up from naps, next to him and still holding on to eachother.
Have him pull me closer or kiss me while he slept, [and i didn't] and not know when mention it.
Not just Know that I've got him forever, but FEEL.

I'm in love... with a town.

Is it's possible? to be in love with a town? i honestly have No Clue.
But thanks to Robby i am absolutly infatuated with Ann Arbor, MI. We went there while i was visiting and it was just about the cutest town ever! amazing little shops. great eats [i REALLY liked Noodle & Co, and am dying to eat at one again] and of course the Michigan Uni. campus which was amazing to check for a moment or two.
Robby n I may joke about my moving to Farminton Hills [or whatev the city is] but i think it'd be amazing cuz then i'd be SO close to Ann arbor and able to visit him AND have this amazing little city just about a half hour away...
oh the wishes n dreams i have.

excited, and scared. not just scared, i'm freakin!

gah!
it's 3am, i have to get up soon for work, and here i am online, not asleep, and i'm just WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY to excited to be gone and on my way to seeing robby.
it's been over a year now since i last saw him. and i'm starting to get scared about it all actually.
i'm re-meeting the mother. officially meeting the rest of the family and i'm freaking out. completly.
gahhhhh! i don't know how i'm gonna make it. that's i lie, i don't know how, but i know that i will make it. and ok lying on my bed typing all this with my head on the matress and looking at the screen sideways, all the letters look realllllly weird. but it's awesome. lol ok yeah... randomness and sleep sillyness are obviously shown now. oops. whatev.

i spent like thirty min looking through all the different images that i'd put together and collected and such on photobucket that i was gonna be using and stuff all the time and i do ust them some but not like i figured i would, but that's ok. it was such a strange trip through my history looking at some. lol and i can't decide if some still apply to my life or not. but others i still completely love. one of the favorites:



i think it's just so cute.
one of the FIRST icons that i put in my album....



even if i'm not a beach/sea side girl, i love it. it's beautiful.
and i know it's a bit silly but pictures like that are the type of modeling i'd love to do... not the up close, or anything like that, but pictures that are silhouette's, distance, black and white and so forth. and preferably cute one's similar to this. it's just something i think i'd enjoy, either taking them or being in them. maybe someday i'll give it a shot. i just think i'm too shy to do any sort of modeling, even from a distance. i prefer candid shots of myself. and this post has gotten wayyy random. haha!

anyways. maybe i should attempt sleep. then again, tomorrow is only a monday. haha!

Mickey cap on the lamp, and Flowers on the wall

So i was up until 2am last night due to airports/friends/driving and snow. =)
what do i have to show for it?
A WALT DISNEY WORLD MICKEY EARS CAP with, my name embroidered into it, in HOT PINK! =)
lol i know i'm a silly goose [although no one can call me that cept myself i decided last night...] but it made me way happy. PLUS i got a pair of jeans back from a friend who'd borrowed them back in like, august or september. HAHA! yay. gotta love that. plus she should be getting my swimsuit back to me soon. woo!

and then today, i took it slow n easy doing nothingness before work. just spent tons of time online, but i did finish some laundry, and clear up a small part of my room and finally did something with my flowers.
yes flowers.
I got some BEAUTIFUL pink gerbier daisies from my lovely boy, Robby, for valentines. <3 gotta love him for all he put into it. and well, they mean something to me, especially since this is the first valentines since 8th grade that i've either a)not broken up with a guy [within a week before or the day of...] and b) i'm not single, and thus celebrating Singles Awareness Day. haha! now robby says i have expectations and that he should've started off easy by like, just being my boyfriend or saying 'happy valentines, i love you' haha! yeah right. lol whatev. next years goal, to be with him on valentines. haha! right, anyways, the flowers, well they're wilted and such and since they mean something to me, i finally pulled them outta the vase and fixed them up all pretty with a ribbon and have hung them on my wall.
They're next to the lamp that my new Mickey Ears are sitting on and i think it's just the funniest thing ever and they make me happy. =)

thought i'd share some of my random happiness for the day with yall.
<3

the sickness

I hate being sick, but i like loosing my voice.
i've probably mentioned it before but thought i'd say it again.

Loving work at the Theater. thinking of changing life around maybe in the next lil bit. looking to take a nice trip to Michigan to see my buddy Robby here in April. =) lots of fun.

loving this time online lately. =) wish i took the incentive to do it more.
oh well...
gotta get better so i can get online more. =)

oh me oh my

why do things have to cost so much?
Has anyone invented teleportation yet? If so, i want to shake their hand.
and if nobody has... THEN INVENT IT! roar. [dinosaur!]

Can i just, move now? right now? and be with him? it's what i want. him, and some sort of education, from somewhere.

Oh no you didn't...

Heather, you tagged me in this about a month ago at least, and here I am taking a few moments before work to get in a post for the first time in TWO months! EEK!

8 Favorite TV Shows in no particular order

1.Gray's Anatomy - thanks for the addiction roomies
2.Greek - the roomie's strike again
3. CSI: Miami
4.Price is Right
5. 60 Minutes - a newfound love of mine for when i get home from church
6. NO MORE! I have no other favorites, i just enjoy watching whatever
7.
8.

Things I did yesterday:

1. Worked - sold tickets, refunds, exchanges, yelled, sold and sold and SOLD
2. Drove gary to his car
3. cleared off my car
4. curled my hair for work. =)
5. drove around from shawns to home to work to gary's car to home.
6.
7.
8.

Favorite Restaurants:
1. Red Robin
2. Applebee's
3. Glacier Brewhouse
4. In N Out -a stretch but i love it =)
5. Olive Garden
6. TGI Friday's
7. Brick Oven
8.

Things on my wish list:

1. Loose Weight
2. my laptop to come back FIXED
3. MORE TIME!
4. a visit to boston
5. slightly longer hair... why won't it just grow??
6. To see Wicked
7. To visit Dad, and Robby
8.

Things I love about FALL:
1. The smell in the air
2. the crisp feeling and scents
3. The changing colors
4. the new beginning school brings
5. Curling up with a great book
6. sweaters
7. the beginning of cuddling with loved ones
8.

PEOPLE I TAG:

1. Camille
2. Shelly
3. Stacey
4. Danelle Cheney
5. tyler S
6. Adam
7. Lance
Yes it's mostly family but that's about all who reads my blog.

just for you heather. =)

So I don't have to much to say, but i thought that just for heather I'd put up a short post.
I'm still alive. I'm still working at the theater. dating a co-worker. I'm going to institute. LOVING my calling at church, and just, Having tons of fun.
AND it snowed this conference weekend!!!!!
it's beautiful and i love it, and will miss it while i'm on VACATION! Adam and I were confirmed for our cruise and we'll be sailing around the Carribean after Mary Kate's Baptism. Can't wait to get a little bit of sun on my pasty white legs. HAHA!

anyways, now that i've said a few things i've decided i have TONS to say, but not enough courage to sit alone at the institute building alone [i (sort of) get to close up, kinda scary!] and so i will just write it all out in word at home, and then copy/paste it later when i've got internet access again.

OH! and FYI if you've been trying to call or text me at my cell number for anything, be aware that it has changed and that I am now available at this new-ish number:

626.536.9889

call it, text it, whatever floats your boat.
love yall tons and can't WAIT to see people in the next few weeks here!

.:crystal:.